End of Innocence: VII

Michael Jackson Fan Fiction: For DangerousPYT’s

End of Innocence VII

May-June 2000

Doing his best to roll out of the way as Prince took a leap off of the bed side table, Michael accidently hit his head on an overhead cabinet and dropped quickly back down. Silence fell upon the bedroom as three sets of eyes stared at their Father as he lay completely still on the bed. Finally Alannah crept over and shook him slightly, “Poppa Michael? Poppa Michael, are you OK?” Jumping up with a loud roar Michael grabbed a screaming Alannah as Prince and Paris squealed off down the length of the new customized bus that sat idling in the parking lot of Mount Sinai waiting for Lexi to be released. Still laughing at his daughters scare Michael reached for his phone,

“Hello”

“Do you need me to come?”

“I will call Ken to meet you at the door and bring you both out here.”

“Uh huh…alright. Sally, how is she?”

“Sure, I guess that’s to be expected. No, we made arrangements to use the loading dock at her apartment. Everything’s fine, just meet Ken and then he will pick us up here at the bus.”

Hanging up the phone Michael sat for a moment at the end of the bed. It was times like these when he wished for another life. When he wished he could be the average person who could pick up their girl from the hospital, hell just to sit and hold their hand in the room. As much as he loved taking care of Alannah all night his heart had been with her Mother and it was tearing him apart not being able to see her.

The kids sensed that Lexi was not well and were well behaved on the ride back to the apartment. Alannah went in the front of the building with her Mother and Grandmother while Michael, Prince and Paris circled the block and entered through the loading dock just in case paparazzi had followed him from the hospital. All three tore off their masks as they entered the elevator and were happy to get to Lexi’s apartment and settle in.

Managing to stay awake until he arrived, Lexi slid her personal cell phone into Michael’s hand.

“Answer this, the clinic is supposed to call me. Michael I have to know if it worked. I have to know if the IVF worked.”

“Babe, you need to rest..”

“Just wake me up, when they call. That’s all I ask.”

“Alright…sure. Promise me you will try and sleep now.”

“I…I will, just wake me up.”

Michael pulled the covers up around her and tried not to think about all the emotions running through his mind. He simply leaned over and kissed her cheek and let her rest, knowing that nothing he could tell her would help until she had her answer.

He was rubbing the back of his neck as he walked out into the living room when he saw Bernadette sitting on the couch.

“Hey girl, I haven’t talked to you in forever. How have you been?”

Standing up to hug him, Bernie smiled and answered, “Yeah Michael, I guess it has been some years huh? Even before I got married.”

Sitting down next to her Michael said, “Lex told me you guys broke up a few months ago Bernie, I’m sorry to hear that.”

“Well you know how it can be; sometimes it just doesn’t work out. I still care about him a lot.”

“Yeah, I know. Believe me I know.”

“Michael, I just met your kids. They are great, you must be awfully proud of them.”

His face lit up with a huge smile, “Oh yeah, I am so proud. Really I am…oh you know, of all my kids.”

Bernadette watched as he seemed to get a faraway look in his eye as he spoke of his children and she was struck by how sincere he was when he spoke of them.

“You know, that day when you found out about Alannah I was really scared. When you took off with them like that in the truck I didn’t know what to do.”

He seemed to break out of his spell when she spoke and he turned his attention back to her, “Hmm, I guess that was the last time I saw you. I was really in shock that day, and angry too I suppose. But Bern…god, I was so damn happy too. I mean one second I was driving down the street and the next there was Lexi. It was like a dream, I missed her so much and poof she was standing in front of me. And before I could even think straight, out comes this beautiful little girl. I knew Bern…I knew the instant I saw her she was mine.”

“You know Michael, I always told her to tell you….but you know how stubborn my big Sister can be. She thought you were living the life you always dreamed of, and she really did wait for you to come back for her.”

A long silence passed before he finally spoke and his voice was softer than normal, “I made a lot of mistakes Bern, and I guess Lex did too. I know I will never be perfect but I don’t know… maybe somehow we can fix this thing. I still love her, and I am really scared I am going to lose her forever.”

Bernadette looked up to see tears staining his face, and knowing that there were not any words that would suit the moment she just took his hand and held on. It was then they were both surprised to hear a voice choking with emotion reply from the doorway to Alannah’s room. “I’m afraid I am going to lose her too Mijo.” Bernadette went to comfort her Mother and soon they all sat together on the couch, with one hope, with one prayer and as one family.

Michael did have one prayer answered, and that was a big steaming plate of Miss Sally’s enchiladas for an early dinner. After saying a prayer together, he tried not to act too excited but when he took his first bite he let out a big whoop and clapped his hands together in happiness. Prince couldn’t help himself but he innocently said, “Daddy never gets happy over food…well sometime over ‘Tucky Chicken.”

Paris was trying her best to be a big girl and she replied, “Pwince, jus eat it.”

Michael smiled at her and leaned over to wipe her mouth that she had just stuffed full of food. “That’s right, all of you eat. So we can get your baths and get you ready for bed. Miss Lexi needs us to stay nice and quiet tonight so she can sleep.”

Prince and Paris both answered together, “Yes Daddy.”

Alannah being her Mother’s daughter stood up and came around to Michael, “But I am going to watch a movie tonight Poppa Michael. It is very early for bedtime.”

Not being used to his authority being questioned Michael stared at her, “Alannah, I didn’t say you had to go to bed now…but you kids can’t be up playing all night. Your Mother is not feeling well and needs some sleep. Can we watch your movie tomorrow after school?”

Michael knew he had seen the look a thousand times before; it was the same one Lexi would throw at him time and time again. But to see Alannah glare at him and then turn away in a huff and head off to her room was almost comical. Michael had to stifle his smile behind his napkin before he followed her into her room and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Alannah, come here and let’s talk this out.” She had already begun to go through her tapes and pick what movie to put in the player but walked over to Michael.

“Are you worried about your Mom?” Michael picked her up and placed her on his knee and watched as her little head nodded up and down.

“Yeah, I am worried about her too. It is kind of scary isn’t it not knowing exactly what is going on with her…right?” Again Alannah nodded and leaned into him for a hug.

Michael planted a soft kiss on top of her head and continued, “You know Babygirl, we aren’t really sure what is going on right now, but your Mom’s friends at the hospital are doing everything they can to make sure they make her all better, just like Mommy and your Daddy did all the time for people.”

It was then that Alannah looked up at Michael with her big brown eyes and he finally understood just how much she did understand, “But Poppa, they couldn’t help Daddy and he went to heaven. I don’t want Mommy to go to heaven too. Daddy went when I was asleep.”

His heart caught in his throat and he held her tight, “Oh God, Baby…No no…Mommy is not, no she is not going to Heaven. We can’t let her go to Heaven.”

Rocking his daughter in his arms he didn’t know if he was comforting her or himself but after several minutes he finally found the courage to talk again. “Hey, I will make you a deal. How about if I stay with you guys in here for awhile and we all quietly watch a movie? We can try to go to sleep while it’s playing, does that sound OK?

Alannah smiled up at him and nodded again before wriggling free, “Now go finish your dinner girl.” He saw her quickly disappear to the dining room and his own belly reminded him of how much he wanted to finish his plate.

Michael set the tray with Lexi’s soup down on the bedside table and noticed she was awake.

“Hey girl, you need to eat so you can take your medicine.”

“Just leave it; I’ll eat in a minute. What time is it Michael, they didn’t call yet?”

“No…not yet. Come on eat something. All you had is breakfast.”

Sitting down on the side of the bed he turned on the lamp and helped her sit up, propping some pillows behind her back.

“How do you feel? Are you hurting?”

“A little bit I guess.”

“You slept good, I checked on you a few times and you were out.”

“Yeah, I smelled Mom’s enchilada’s, that’s when I woke up. So I guess you are full?”

Michael looked up from getting her a spoonful of soup to almost see a smile on her face and he felt some relief about her well being wash over him.

“Girl yes, gawd they were good too. I had three servings and there are more in the fridge for later.”

Taking the bowl of soup from him Lexi looked over the edge of the bowl and asked, “Did you have Bernadette’s flan yet?”

“I will as soon as you are settled back in and are asleep, Mmmm hmmm keeping the flan from a brother, see how they are?”

At last he got what he wanted an, honest to goodness smile on her face. Reaching up he smoothed her hair back and his hand lingered for a moment against her cheek. “You gonna be OK?”

“Yeah, I’ll be alright. I have to be.”

She had just managed to finish her soup when her cell phone rang. Michael nervously handed it to her and picked the tray up off of her lap so she was more comfortable and sat down on the bed again and waited.

He watched as her face furrowed in anticipation then just as quickly her eyes began to brim with tears. Michael watched as her hand dropped the phone on the bed before she finally looked at him.

“Lexi what is it, what happened.”

“Dr. Fisher…that was Dr. Fisher at the clinic, Michael it didn’t work. Oh God, none of them. There are no embryos.”

“Can you try again? They saved some right?”

“It’s over Michael….it’s all over.”

As Michael went to put his arms around her she just pushed him away, “I want to be alone. I’m sorry, please. I can’t do this right now.”

“Yeah, um sure, I uh promised Alannah we would watch a movie anyway.”

Standing up he reached for the tray and looked down sadly on her as she rolled over in the bed. He could hear her sobs as she cried into her pillow and he ached to hold her in his arms but he simply turned and left her to her sorrow.

“Do you want some flan Michael?” Bernadette’s voice rang out in the kitchen as he set the tray on the counter.

She saw him wipe his eyes, when he thought she wasn’t looking, “Michael, what’s wrong? Is Lex alright?”

“No, not really.” Turning around he leaned back against the sink and rubbed his eyes. “I guess you should go talk to her Bern. This involves you.”

Feeling her stomach sink Bernadette closed her eyes before speaking, “Don’t tell me none of them…NONE of them fertilized?”

“I guess not, she is pretty upset. She asked me to leave.”

“Michael, it’s not you. She just wanted a piece of him to hold on to. I know it might be hard to hear or understand, but they did love each other. He was so good to her and the baby.”

“I do understand, I just don’t want to see her going through this. Bern I want her to focus on being healthy right now. I can’t lose her; it would kill me if I lost her.”

Their conversation was interrupted by the kids freshly scrubbed and ready for bed, “Daddy can we watch the movie now?, Prince asked sweetly.

Kneeling down, Michael hugged his son, “Of course let’s go.”

Bernadette could hear them talking as they made their way into Alannah’s room…..”Did ya pick one out yet “lannah?”

A month had passed and Lexi had started back to work and Michael was busy in the studio. She had been asking him to watch Alannah one evening a week until she could get off of work to get her. Lexi hated walking in the front door of the hotel past the fans, afraid that they may begin to recognize her or see the resemblance between Alannah and Michael. One fan who did notice her was the young blonde who had been in the room when Lexi was there unannounced. They always seemed to stare at each other but the girl never spoke or seemed to be too friendly with the other fans. Lexi still hadn’t felt like discussing her with Michael so she let it go. It was taking all her energy to be in the moment and she just didn’t want to dwell on negative things if she didn’t have to.

Knocking on the door of the suite, it was answered by Ken, “Good evening Dr. Garcia-Thomas. Mr. Jackson asked me to step out when you arrived. The children are at FAO Schwarz with Miss Grace. You have the suite to yourselves.”

“OK….well thank you.”

Making herself at home Lexi sat down on the couch and took off her heels and leaned back. Soon she smelled him fresh from the shower, “There you are, come on in here.” Michael took her hand, led her to the bathroom and started filling the Jacuzzi tub for her.

“I checked and you can have a bath now, you need to relax girl.”

“I do?”

“Yeah…you do.”

Moving towards her he bent his head down and softly brushed his lips against hers. “It’s going to kill me to do this you know.” Lexi could feel his fingers as he caressed her nipple outside of her silk blouse.

“Is it? I think I like it. “

“Mmmm so do I baby.”

Taking a deep breath he stepped back and began to unbutton her blouse, pulling it free of her skirt and finally off completely. Pushing her bra straps down he planted tiny kisses along the top of her shoulder until he buried his face in her hair.

“I want you so much Alexis; I can’t do this just get in the water.”

Reaching behind her Lexi unsnapped her bra allowing her breasts to fall free of the lace and satin. Unable to help himself he gathered them in his hands, while bringing his lips over her nipple. As she pushed her chest up to his mouth she gasped as his teeth grazed her delicate skin,

“Ah yes…Michael.”

“Get in Lex…just get in the water.”

As he pushed her away he could see that she was breathing as hard as he was, and her eyes were wild with desire. “I know we can’t make love tonight, just get in the water. Please.”

“I’m sorry, Michael I….”

Finally he wrapped his arms around her and silenced her with a deep kiss as he unzipped her skirt and pushed it down around her hips. “Come on…”

He held her hand as she stepped in the tub and sat down, and then swiftly removed his robe and joined her.

“I didn’t think you would get in too? Michael this is great.”

She leaned back against him, loving the feel of his chest against her back. Loving it even more when his hands began to roam her body, she watched as he cupped the water and poured it over her breast…then he pinched her nipple till it was hard and pointed. He repeated it from side to side till she was almost crazed with desire.

“Michael you’re making me want you so much…we should stop.”

“Why should we stop Baby, I can make you come. Don’t you want to come for me?”

Moving his hand down, he slid his finger on top of her swelling bud. They gasped together as he hit his mark and Lexi’s hips moved up towards his hand, “Mmmm Babygirl, I read that you might not be wet…but damn even in this water you are ready for me. I’m gonna make you come so hard girl…just get ready.” Lexi reached out for his thighs and squeezed them tightly as he rotated his finger around her mark. The more she moaned and thrust the more he gave her until finally she thrust upward, searching for the penetration he had to deny her.

As he ran his hand down her he smiled in satisfaction at the pleasure he had given her, a bit of relief from the stress she was enduring. So it was unexpected when she was suddenly on her knees facing him, “Sit up, and get on the ledge.”

“No, babe…I’m fine.”

“Michael, gawd, I want you. Get up. “

Not being one to say no, he pushed up and slid back on to the ledge of the tub as Lexi took him with her lips. He had to admit it was amazing as he leaned back and watched her lower herself down over his tip again and again. The feeling of her soft mouth moving over his shaft never got old or felt the same, and she always looked sexy and beautiful to him as she moved upon his body.

Using her tongue Lexi licked off the water from top to bottom and then sunk down completely before focusing again on making him meet his ecstasy. Her cheeks hollowed in as she sucked hard on him and Michael felt the familiar burn begin deep within his groin. “Baby…Lex, I gonna come. Don’t stop, Mmmm.” Pushing her head down he started to pump his hips towards her mouth until, with a giant release his orgasm overcame him thrust upon thrust until he could no longer move.

Sliding back into the water he held her close, wrapping his leg over her body in the warmth. “You’re amazing Alexis, thank you.”

“Thank you Michael”

They lay together until he thought the water was getting cold. “Here let me wash your hair then we can get out.”

“No…my hair is fine. I don’t want to get it wet tonight.” Lexi sat up swiftly and wrapped up in a robe and waited for Michael to join her. He felt like he was floating on a cloud as he pulled her close on the way to the bedroom.

 

Lexi climbed into bed and fell asleep and Michael got dressed and saw that the kids had arrived home from their shopping trip. They had a nice dinner and as he came in to get ready for the studio Lexi woke up and wanted to go home.

“You should just stay here, “lannah is asleep with Paris. Go home in the morning Babe.”

“Yeah but I don’t like sleeping here without you Michael, it’s not the same.”

Climbing in behind her he snuggled up, pulling her close, “I know, I know. Let me think about it for a second.”

“Ok, but first I need to go to the restroom, I will be right back.”

Lexi turned and gave him a kiss. Michael held her there for a moment and smoothed her hair back from her face. A gesture he had done hundreds, if not thousands of times. As she left him in the bed, he could hear her behind the closed door of the bathroom. She was getting sick, violently sick and he had a handful of her hair in his fist. Michael was terrified and didn’t know why she hadn’t told him she was undergoing what could only be chemotherapy.  He had thought the nightmare was over with the surgery.

To be continued…

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