Victim of Love: VIII

Victim of Love: VIII

July 2002

Staring at the television, Lexi held the tissue tightly in her clenched fist. It hadn’t mattered where she turned the channel, the late night comics continued to make snide comments and jokes at Michael’s expense. Most of them came back to the word “devilish” and had consisted of using an unflattering picture of him at the rally. Coughing into the tissue, she angrily flung the remote against the leather cushions of the couch and cursed at the big jawed comedian on the screen.

Springing up to rid herself of her anger by finishing up the dishes in the kitchen, she halted as another coughing spell caught her by surprise. Taking a moment she took some cough medicine and tackled the dishes; worried about Michael, their family and finally how she could ever live her own life to the fullest.

The ringing of the telephone caught her just as she switched off the light; she decided to just sit in the dark at the kitchen table knowing Michael would be at the other end of the line.

“So I guess you saw all the jokes tonight?”

“Yeah..pretty much. How can they call that comedy Michael?”

“It’s show business Lex. They have a job to do.”

“Don’t try to act like it doesn’t hurt you Michael. I know you better than that.”

His voice turned into a whisper…

“Sometime…”

“All the time”

“It doesn’t matter girl.”

“It does to me.”

“Lex?”

“Yeah?”

“You know…I been more worried ‘bout you still being mad at me.”

“Michael? Are you serious, with all this going on?”

Lexi could hear a slight chuckle from the receiver,

“Yeah…”

“You’re crazy”

“About you”

“Babe, I’m not going to lie. Yes, I am still hurt….”

She had to stop talking due to a coughing fit and Michael patiently waited.

“Are you going to go get that checked out Lex.? You sound awful.”

“I’m taking some antibiotics. It just takes time…. relax.”

“Ok, you’re the Doctor…you were saying?”

“Um..yeah. I am still hurt Michael. I’m tired of That Woman being in our lives, I just don’t understand this…this, this THING she has over you.”

“Baby…you have the THING now. Please believe me.”

“I’m trying Michael…it’s just hard when I see it in black and white on a document like that.”

“I’m gonna change it Lex. I need to sit down with Mother and discuss it all with her and I it will get changed. Please be patient, ain’t nothing gonna happen though.”

Another coughing spell interrupted their conversation and Michael waited for her to stop.

“Lex, go to bed; you need your rest.”

“Yeah, I am tired….Michael. Please promise me you are done for good with her?”

“Just trust me…that is all I ask. I’ll be home next week, I found out today. Kiss “lannah for me.”

“Goodnight Michael”

“I love you Alexis”

“Love you”

Michael sat in the stiff chair of the suites living area, the ever present light from the lamp blazing over his shoulder wishing he could sleep. He was relieved that Lexi had spoken to him again so quickly after she had left New York. He figured in an odd way he was lucky that things went badly with the press at the rally. It horrified Lexi and she called as soon as she landed at LAX. He had actually surprised himself that he let his temper get the best of him in front of the crowd. But after all he was Joseph’s son and there were times he just couldn’t help it.

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Blanket stirred in his crib, hungry and yearning for his Father’s touch. Grace had started to get up from her reading when she heard Lexi’s voice over the monitor.

“Hola Mijo, usted tiene hambre?”

Rolling her eyes Grace continued on with her magazine, quietly mumbling under her breath,

“…all these children so confused around here, and nobody tries to keep it straight but me.”

The tiny footsteps of the older children vibrated on the wood floors as they played in Paris’s room and Grace eventually tuned Lexi’s soft singing to the baby out as he drifted back to sleep.

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A soft breeze caressed his skin as he stood just outside the French Doors to his bedroom. Finishing up the last of his nightly phones calls while silently wishing he could hurry and finish the project he was working on before Lexi and Alannah arrived for the evening.

“Yes I will have it all picked out before you get here.”

“Uh huh…you should be happy with it; we will do it together then.”

“Ok…thank you.”

Off the phone finally, he was beginning to regret allowing the journalist so much access to his life. But he knew if he pulled out now, the headlines in the tabloids would be plastered with some crazy story about him trying to hide something from the public. He had heard that the fans were beginning to post online that a baby had been spotted and he knew he would have to reveal Blanket soon, so it would be by his terms and not the tabloids and certainly not this journalist that he was quickly learning not to trust.

As he fast forwarded the video he had been watching before the phone call he heard the key turn in the lock and stopped the tape as Lexi bounced down on the bed,

“Hi I fed your Son.”

“You did? How long you been here?”

“Half hour or so I guess.”

Leaning over Michael tentatively kissed her, hoping she wouldn’t reject him.

“Mmmm is that all I get?”

Moving close to him Lexi softly touched his neck and pulled him close,

“I missed you….”

The shudder of anticipation that ran through his body excited them both,

“I want you…I been thinking ‘bout making love to you all day Alexis.”

“I have too….”

Suddenly it was if they were all arms and legs, and they couldn’t seem to get their clothes off fast enough. Lexi stumbled and fell back on the bed as she pulled her shorts and panties off, but Michael was already laying there…the evidence of his passion growing in front of her eyes. Her breath caught in her chest and her stomach still felt the familiar butterflies of anticipation that loving him brought her. The sheer magnetism of his eyes, his lips and his body drew her down to lay with him and give into blissful surrender.

Lexi felt the cool touch of Michael’s hands as they ran down the length of her spine when she moved astride him.

“Mmm your hands are cold.”

“I think you are just extra hot right now, come here.”

Wrapping her hair around his hand he kissed her roughly, their lips meeting with an excitement and an urgency that surprised them both. Senses collided, the touch of their tongues and fingers upon naked skin felt like pure energy. The scent of perfume and cologne and perspiration intermingled as one and even the taste of that same perspiration slid across their tongues like an aphrodisiac.

Rising above him, he sucked greedily on her nipple while lifting her on to his hardened shaft. Lexi’s moan of pleasure caused him to stiffen even more and he bit down on her breast as she arched deep into his thrust.

Michael’s lips began to ardently follow the curve of her neck as he traced her skin,

“You like that girl…hmm?”

Her body rolled wildly as she rode him and whispered,

“Uh…god yes….yeah”

Rolling her over, he pushed inside again quickly unable to wait any longer for his climax. Lexi was in ecstasy feeling the pleasure of his thrust over and over again. Pinning her arms above her head he held her down, griping her wrists tightly as he never stopped his intense stare.

“Believe me Alexis”

She was unable to answer him, too caught up in her own gratification.

Holding her wrists tighter he snarled as he thrust harder,

“Believe me…damn you Alexis, tell me.”

“Michael….uh. What Baby?”

They were both so close, both so intense.

“Me…baby, just believe me. I love you.”

He stopped; suddenly he just lay atop her releasing her arms…waiting for her to respond.

Lexi hips still ground upon him, begging..pleading for relief. Tiny moans and cries of frustration rising from her throat.

“Oh god, Michael…please. I want you so bad.”

Slowly Michael began grinding his hips in a small circle, his lips tight against her neck as he held her face gently in his hands.

“Tell me Alexis please, te quiero Baby girl…te quiero”

“I believe you baby, te quiero Michael, con todo mi corazón y el alma te quiero.

Lexi heard him sigh before he again lifted his head and stared into her eyes. Their lips met and the pace increased, sharp nails were raked down his soft flesh until finally they found their rapture together. Expressing physically what their words had already said.

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Lying as long as she could underneath him, Lexi finally pushed him off and sat up, coughing a few times from the exertion of their union.

“Are you feeling better?

Michael rubbed her back from the comfort of the bed.

“Oh yeah, I told you those antibiotics would help.”

“Ok, you know I worry. Where’s ‘lannah?”

“With the kids, they were playing in Paris’s room.”

Making her way to the bathroom she freshened up before putting on her panties and tank top.

“Why you gonna go get dressed again? Maybe I’m not done.”

Lexi laughed and lay back down in the crook of his arm, pressing her backside against his crotch.

“Damn girl…I’m really not going to be done you lay here like this very long.”

His hand was already sliding up underneath her tank and exploring her breast.

“I didn’t say I minded that did I?”

“Mmm, no you didn’t…no you didn’t”

Closing their eyes they both relaxed for a moment and enjoyed the closeness between them. Michael loved how soft and womanly she felt lying next to him and Lexi loved how safe and protected she knew she was within his arms. They both understood these moments were precious, especially at Neverland.

But as precious thing go, they never last and Michael’s intercom rang. Grace wanted to let him know that it was time for the babies bath and he had fifteen minutes to join her if he wanted to give to participate.

“You want to go with me to bathe Blanket?”

“Of course…”

“Alright…we got a few minutes though, so don’t get up yet.”

Leaning over Lexi winced and said,

“No I’m not getting up but I am getting whatever this is out from underneath me. It’s been poking me this whole time.”

Running his hand along her hips Michael began to laugh,

“What! I thought that was my job.”

Picking up the comforter Lexi pulled out the long forgotten remote control for the VCR. Michael’s face continued to smile and Lexi looked back at him with a suspicious look on her face.

“Oh my…and what were we watching? Something sexy before I got here is that what got you so worked up Baby?”

“It was nothing, here give me that and lets go wash our boy.”

Lexi pulled the remote away and jumped up from the bed.

“No way, I wanna see this. Michael you were so hot, I want to use it again.”

“Really it’s nothing. You’re embarrassing me Lex. I was just looking at…”

Hitting play, Lexi sat on the edge of the bed and watched as a large flag of the United States came on the screen and then a very young looking reporter worked the red carpet.

“Hey that’s Regis!”

Lexi’s voice was a sing song as she was still wrapped up in watching the video.

Michael was quiet, not looking at the video and especially not watching the reaction Lexi was having as she watched Diana and him appear on the Oscars red carpet back in 1981. The tiny gasp when they kissed was followed by a sniff from Lexi as the clip on the video switched to one of them on Diana’s special wearing their matching white suits and singing “Rock With You” together. At some point he heard the exchange on the tape where they told each other they were sexy….that elicited a sob from Lexi and she stood up thrusting the remote at him.

“I…I’ve seen enough.”

“It’s not what you think….Lex really”

A coughing spell overcame her and she had to sit back down on the bed. Moving to be next to her, Michael put his arm around her back to comfort her.

“Don’t fucking touch me…don’t you dare touch me.”

Hunter’s face quickly flashed before his eyes, as he was reminded of the first time he kissed her on the train. Heartbroken by Diane he had assumed she was using him and would reject him too. The words Lexi used were so similar…so heartbreaking to hear.

“Lex, it’s for the doc…”

“I don’t even want to hear it. Just stop it Michael, stop lying to me. It should have been YOU nominated for that damn award. All you do is act every time you say you love me YOU LIE..you lie…you lie.”

Breaking down she began to pull on her shorts, trying to see through her tears. Her sobs and coughs echoing loudly in the room….all the while Diana and Michael’s clips played insanely as a backdrop.

“Where are you going?”

“To get away from you Michael, I can’t take it right now.”

“Don’t leave The Ranch Lex, don’t take ‘lannah…..”

“Is that a threat?”

“You’re damn’d right it’s a threat.”

Their argument had left the bedroom and made its way to the staircase, the shouting ringing loudly through the house

“I’ll take my daughter wherever I want, don’t you dare tell me what I can and cannot do with her. I never question you about, about….”

They were nose to nose in the hallway, their voices so loud it could be heard even  over the music outside.

“You will regret it if you do Alexis.”

“What are you talking about Mr. Michael Jackson, are you threatening me with taking her again. Even with ALL your damn money I don’t think there is a court in the world that would give her to YOU!”

For the second time that night Michael grabbed her wrist and looked deep into her eyes, but this time he was angry and she felt it as he pushed her against the wall.

“Just what is that supposed to mean.”

Lexi was shaking, knowing how upset he had become…

“Answer me; I swear to god Lexi if you don’t I will….”

“Stop it..please stop fighting.”

The tiny voice caught their attention and they both looked towards the source, Alannah stood at the end of the hallway. Holding her pillow, tears streaming down her face as she helplessly watched them fight over her,

“Mommy….Daddy please don’t yell at each other.”

Sliding to the floor Lexi collapsed; coughing and crying, too upset and sick to walk to her daughter. Michael picked her up and carried her back up the stairs with “lannah following behind.

“Get in bed with your Mommy Princess, she is not feeling very good tonight.”

“I know she’s been real sick…who is that lady on the TV with you?”

“It’s nobody, baby. Nobody at all.”

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Watching Lexi and ‘lannah sleep in his bed sometime after midnight Michael finally decided to join them. Smelling the sweet scent of his daughter as she snuggled against her mother warmed his heart and he curled around Lexi wondering what the morning might bring.

Lexi stirred from her sleep and whispered to him in the dark,

“She called you Daddy…”

“I know”

“Michael?”

“Yeah”

“We can’t do this anymore.”

“Do what?”

“This…all of it.”

His heart dropped at her words, he was so afraid of what she might say next.

“We’re going to go to Mexico for awhile…probably a long while.”

Lexi heard the catch in his voice when he responded,

“How can I see her?”

Michael heard the sob in Lexi’s voice when she spoke,

“I’ll bring her up to San Diego for you.”

Nothing else was said, but she felt his tears on her neck the rest of the night…and in turn hers were left on his pillow.

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Breakfast was unusually quiet and Michael took a long walk with Alannah when they were finished. Lexi spent that time with Blanket up on her hill overlooking the house. The morning passed quickly by and soon it was time to return to Los Angeles.

“Thank you for everything Poppa I love you.”

“I love you more. I will see you very soon Baby, Ok?”

“Ok”

Turning to Lexi he took her by the hand and walked her away from the staff that was helping load the last minute items into Lexi’s car.

“I guess its back to Poppa now.”

“She knows Michael, that’s what counts. She knows…”

Looking down at the ground he kicked at it uncomfortably not knowing what to say.

“I should go; traffic is going to be bad.”

“I don’t want you to go Alexis. Stay here at Neverland. Marry me…Please cant we  be a family?”

Watching as her eyes teared up and turned red he knew what her answer would be,

“Michael I want to be your wife more than anything in this world. I love you more than anything except that girl and boy over there. But…”

She paused to wipe her eyes and he interjected,

“But….”

“But, I can’t be your wife when your heart still belongs to someone else.”

“But I love you Lexi.”

“I know that; but you’re still IN love with Diana and I’ll never be Hunter either, hell I guess I won’t ever be Lisa or Debbie. I can’t measure up Michael and its killing me. Everyday a little bit inside…its killing me. I’m not that young girl running down the freeway anymore who is trying to save the world. I need to live my life; I’ve been too close to dying now too many times.”

“Let me try, give me one more chance girl.”

“I have to go.”

Pulling her close he pressed his lips hard against hers, his hands stroking the silky softness of her hair.

“No…I can’t let you go.”

Tears mingled together, as well as their sobs and when their lips finally parted she made her way to the car and quickly drove away. No more words, no more tears, no goodbyes.

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“Alannah make sure your seatbelt is on.”

“It is Mommy.”

“Thank you”

Turning on to the highway she hadn’t noticed the car that had pulled out of a driveway not far from The Ranch…the car driven by a man with the most beautiful blue eyes she had ever seen.

To Be Continued…..

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